Feelings of the impending doom...

Finals Week. This one is gonna hurt.

Thanksgiving was a great day - the food was great, the company was great, the kids were great entertainment and always reminding me baby-proofing my home is imminent.

It's been snowing big, wet, sloppy snow all morning and Robbie and I have had general feelings of laziness and blah. We will head out with an attempt to find energy in the form of grocery shopping (didn't I just do that?) and errand running. Regardless of what we do, it's nice to just be together.

I was up yesterday at 6:05 am to partake in my first ever Black Friday Shopping Experience, hosted by my friends Mrs. Nelson and Laresa, accompanied by veteran shopper Tamara, Laresa's mom. I had very little to actually spend and made the decision to go because there was the slight possibility a breakfast meal might be included in the festivities. Hanging out with the girls and watching them rake in the deals was fun, but I can't say this will become a yearly tradition for me. For some reason 6:00 am seems way to early to stand in ridiculously long lines. Bacon and pancakes, however, are always a nice reward.

Officially this weekend marks my journey out of the first trimester and into my second. This is really hard for me to believe and causes a slight increase in anxiety of the oh my goodness we are actually going to have a baby in a few months variety. I spent the first few months of pregnancy wishing to be in the second trimester and now that I am there I feel like those first few months simply slipped away and my preparedness meter isn't pointed where it should be. Apparently, according to other mothers, this feeling never really goes away.

And that overwhelming feeling of not being prepared brings me right back to Finals Week. Ahhh, the circle of life.

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Laura said…
Get busy, get through it, and don't be a Dillon. It is almost over:) Good luck!
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Grumpa said…
Nope, next year at this time you and Robbie will be your own line at 6am to feed your child! Or maybe 4 am like you did for 2 years. But it was only temporary and your baby will only wake you up temporarily, enjoy! Now French, you can use forever and teach it to your children right from the start. That way, they will be bilingual! C'est tellement cool! Ils peuvent utiliser la classe de francais etude. Je t'aime. Maman.
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