Robbie's "Vacation" Continues...

I am watching sweet Miss Ems today and she is currently starting her mid-morning nap....so, I have a little time to blog, yeah me.

A Job for Mr. Knight...an Update:
Robbie went on a couple of interviews last week and has been asked to come in for a second interview next week with one of the companies. The interview with Long Motor Corporation went really, really well. Robbie made a good impression and found that ALL of his skills in graphics and web would be utilized.....not to mention the benefits and pay would be an incredible bonus. We are currently waiting to find out if Robbie will be offered the job. Unfortunately, this could take two weeks................when is rent due? : )

It always scares me when you want something so bad and believe it is the right thing for your life. What scares me is whether or not what you want is what God wants for you. Robbie and I are trying to remind ourselves that if he doesn't get the job he really wants, then God has a better plan in mind. Sometimes this way of thinking really bugs me. I truly want to believe this - but at the same time I feel like it is just a way to pacify the anxiety raging within me. These lessons in faith, prayer and trust are wearing me out.

Well, I hear Emma.....it's time to play and stop thinking about this bump in the road.

Comments

Wis said…
Nothing like a babe to lure you away from life's woes.

I'm glad Robbie's interviews went well. Hopefully, he'll hear something from LMC soon. Why two weeks? Are they conducting more interviews during this time?

I hope this isn't a downer but your discussion on God's plans and trusting him leads me to think/wonder/ask, how much does God really intervene in our lives? I have this nagging deist side that leans towards an answer of, “not much, if at all.” Of course, my hope and even life experiences cause me to negate such an idea but yet the thought lingers. I can’t help but think about all the people in this world that don’t get basic needs met every day and I wonder how is God at work here? The conclusion I ultimately draw from these types of questions is cyclical in that I realize I am responsible to use my blessings in order to be God’s vessel in others’ lives. It’s a matter of perspective and focus I suppose which gets jacked out of shape at times.

I know it’s hard to stay positive when life’s trials are beating down on you. Despite my God doubts, I still pray for resolve in your lives. Plus, Robbie has been so proactive through this whole thing I’m sure he’s learned a lot and his efforts will be rewarded.
5:06 PM
Anonymous said…
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge HIM and HE will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6.
10:16 PM
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